I'm sorry for posting here, I just need to vent and don't really have anywhere else to post this.
I don't know if I can keep this up. I have been on Twitch for years, under various names, and with different niches or gimmicks to draw people in.
I just got back after a year hiatus, and it was great!
...for a while. I have 2800 followers that I've accumulated over the years, but maybe 3-4 people that still show up at all. I don't think I can keep this up anymore, I feel like I've wasted months and months of my life, streaming to myself at this point.
I haven't made a dime with Twitch. I never did it for the money, but after all is said and done, I have lost money by streaming through subscriptions and giveaways and loyalty bots (deepbot) , and the like.
Yet I see countless streamers steadily grow and grow, and make connections, and have not seen anyone come back to my channel after I raid them, host them, sub to them, shoot the shit with them. It feels like an "I'll scratch your back, you scratch mine" mentality, but with my back never being scratched. It's a dumb analogy I know, but I am just kind of at a loss and having a bit of a crisis, frankly.
Clearly if people don't want to watch me that's okay, and that the core reason is it's a problem with my channel, but after all these years it really doesn't feel particularly fair. I think I'm a great streamer, and I have good evidence to suggest that's the case. But I can't keep fighting. I can't keep doing this.
I had to stop streaming today, 30 minutes after starting, when nobody except one awesome viewer showed up. I think it just all came to a head today. I don't know what to do. I think this is goodbye.
This could just be a rant and I may find myself raring to stream again on Sunday, but right now I'm at a crossroads.
I'm sorry for posting this here, I just get the feeling there are people out there who are in the same shoes as me.
EDIT: I want to thank everyone here who has commented, you've all provided some wonderful tips. I'm going to take some time to think over the course of this week, and decide what I intend to do. I wrote this as I was kind of being emotional, so it's all over the place and for that I apologize. But hopefully others who, may feel stuck in the same position can glean some encouragement from all the great responses here!